Lookin from da Velvet Window

Rain & Logarithms

2005-04-14T23:36:00.000-07:00

Its raining outside now. got stuck at the bus stop due to da heavy rain. dad had to pick me up.

Well... nothin much happened since da last time i blogged other than dat wilson cam back from aus. Finished revising logarithms. pretty easy subject once u've gotten grasp of it. next is gonna catch up with functions & absolute functions. from the looks of it, i dun think i'm gonna fail my a maths for this comin common tests...well...at least i hope dat i don't fail. movin on...

The class is like a battlefield. Paper bullets shooting everywhere.

Main soldiers involved : Myself, Amos, Brendan and last but not least Clifton.

Hahaha. so much fun nowadays in class. Sorry Clit. hahaha. he wrote me a testimonial sayin dat he's got a bruise from my bullet. Was shot during after school. Another shot dat made a mark was at his hand.

Unfortunately for Amos, my bullet hit his dick while his hit the right side of my forehead. the tragedy...... one down (those now celebratin father's day in da future) and much more to go. hahaha. so beware all of u out there. As for Brendan... i dun really remember much but damn... they all kept on ganging up on me. oh yah...Brendan was the guy who kept on makin amos and clit join him in order to iradicate me by the means of shooting the hell out of me.

The fuckin chased me till the toilet!!! is dat fucked up or wat? had to lock my self in da stinkin toilet for abt 5 minutes. but boy was it fun... and for all those gay faggots..NO!!! we did not do anythin u sick freaks!

Now i remember... WE broke brendan's specs after skul today. the war raged on until about 1 or so (after school already). Like always, it was Amos who was da culprit. Dunno how the specs broke when one of Amos' bullets shot brendan's face. Lucky no glass went into brendan's eyes. HHhahaa. but it was pretty hilarious i guess.

Hmmnn... B divs just ended... we lost da match to Saints by 6 points which they got from da 2 penalties they were given. From the people who went there, i heard da referee was kinda fucked up. But hell... we all know who da real winners are. ACSI all the way and for da ruggers who was on da pitch, you did a good job. till next year.

Stress

2005-03-28T03:30:00.000-08:00

i want to feel high

NEW

2005-03-27T06:44:00.000-08:00

... k.... i can't believe i'm bloggin again. Anyways, i'm thinkin of changin da Skin. its gettin kinda boring. maybe i'll go for white da next time. give it a li'll change.

Movin on. It's now 10.46 pm. Got school tomorrow but i'll be skippin Assembly (like always) to get some more sleep. Just hope da teachers dun find out!

Hmmnn...Life's bein alright i guess... Nothin much happened lately other than dat i'm really crazy abt anime's now. Especially BECK. GUYS...I recommend watchin BECK. its on of those anime's whereby one will be motivated by it. well..at least dats how i felt. Its not them ordinary fighting based anime. Its a music type. Very good story!

Ok...enuff abt anime. Well...one thing's for sure, haven't been contactin clara for quite a while now. dunno whether dats good or bad. haiz...life sure is confusing ey? dats why there's anime to let go of ourselves and go into the character's realm. How i wish i can be some of da guys in da comic. Don't think dirty can? Anime does not have to be Hentai!!!

Hmmnn...This weekend... Friday was free coz it was Good Friday. Nothin much happened. went out with da 3.13 guys. i couldn't believe it myself. at least chingy was there. Hahaha. On saturday night, went out with Mandeep, Shyen and Prentice. had a really good time there. 1st met them at Tiong Bahru for dinner. played a bit of arcade then we were off to kim seng to play some bowling. pretty fun considerin dat we learnt a new technique all thx to mandeep. he and his stupid curling ball!!! but !@%^$^!@#!!! it actually fuckin works!!! da ball just misses da gutter by cm, only to change its course and hit da pins.

Came back at abt 12.30 or so. couldn't really remember.

thank u.

2004-11-12T06:58:00.000-08:00

Hmmnn..really duno why i'm still updatin this blog. i suppose its becoz someone still wants to read it :P hahaha. for u justine :D anyways, thx for clearin my questions abt life. i suppose it kinda helped me. but i think i'll need some more help or should i say wisdom again.

anyways...lets move on... wat have i been busy on this past few days???
2 letters... PC!!!!

yesh...i'm crazy abt computers now ppl. startin da lane to become a geek. wat can i say?...geeks will rule da world in future. therefore, one must think and act like them to earn the wisdom they attain. been visitin www.hardwarezone.com.sg . hehehe. mad right??? i can basically read da forums till 2 in da mornin!!! really into this computer stuff. i even bought a dummies guide on how to build ur PC ,"Building a PC for dummies". i really want to make my own PC. but i'm afraid dat i might actually screw it up instead of making it into da ultimate PC.

ok...enuff abt PC.

Goin back to Aus tomorrow. gonna be so fuckin bored there... Aimin to lose some poounds over there since there's a treadmill & and da gymset. shouldn't be too hard right??? da worse thing is dat its gonna be summer over there. gonna be so fuckin hot!!! probably gonna go fishin nearly everyday. hmmnn...yeah...think dat'll be it.

Deception...

Phew

2004-11-03T04:30:00.000-08:00

---I don't hate You...but i must say dat ur frend's quite a b*tch. seriously... i mean i don't blame u for hatin me. but u gotta admit dat it was kinda wrong for ur frend to tell u right? besides, most of da stuff i said was said jokingly...well some... if u wanna know which are da real ones, u can come to me and i'll tell u all honestly. but ur friend...she's just low. very low. becoz of her, our group's pretty fucked up. and i don't blame u at all. but i do blame her. call me naive and unfair, but dat's just how it is. thing is, i don't wish to tell her this coz as u know, she's with a frend of mine. Anyways, its up to u to choose. All i can say is dat i don't blame u if u hate me. but i must tell u dat i don't hate u/dislike. And again, i just gotta tell u dat ur frend's quite a b*tch!---

Damn...nothin beats a nice cold shower after a very tirin day. Lets see....today's probably gonna be da most fun day for da whole holidays. Went to Sentosa with Benedict, Samuel Cheam, Raj, Jimmy, Jay (MotherFucker as in for real!!!) and Samuel Eng and lets not forget Prentice. Boy was it fun!!! met the guys at Harbour Front. had a rather tough time actually meetin up with em. Feel sorry for Eng coz he had to come here all da way from JB at 6 in da mornin. a bit sad ey??? hahaha. But i think he'd have regretted if he didn;t come. Lets see...wat did we do??? Swim...Swim...and more Swimmin. other than dat, we basically took da train (da train dat runs on da road) and went around dat place and also went to dat Merlion Walk thing. hahaha. Fuckin Chalet all booked so we had to go back. had a tough time findin accomodation for da night so we all headed back home. Man...my head's still fuckin SPINNIN!!! as in for real!!! geez....i dun feel to good either... Had to change like 3 times!!!! luckily i brought along 3 sets of clothes includin da ones dat i swam and came there with. Never knew sentosa could have been dat fun.

Hmmnn...i gotta admit, i'm gonna miss 2.11 Asher badly! due to da fact dat next year will be so fuckin boring with all them geekz...well not all of em and i'm not sayin dat i'm not one. but i can say dat i'm more fun than them. hehehe. self-praisal, No Offence dudes. hahaha!!! Voted as Chairman... how screwed can dat be??? i mean its me we're talkin abt here. JUSTIN GUNAWAN!!! i really dunno how da fuck i ended bein a chairman...hahaha. lets just say dat next year is goin to be HELL!!! its TRIPLE SCIENCE we're talkin abt here!!!

Movin on... Man...my head's still spinnin. its pretty bad. on da verge of takin panadol. but just can't be bothered to go out now. FUCK!!! its damn bad sia this head ache. might turn in early today...maybe around 8.30. its now 8pm.

Song of da Moment : Shut Up! by Black Eyed Peas

Geek

2004-10-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

Sup... Been a while since i blogged. really been moody these days... today was last day of skul... gonna miss 2.11 so much. da Ruebens, Cheam, William (Gay Ass), Aik Wee (sabo King), da "cheuk ho" group. hahaha. gonna miss all those fights, screwed up games and just da class itself... Well...at least we'll still be in da same school right? hahaha.

Ever wished u were someone else?
Ever wished u were more mature than u are now?
Ever wished u were not even livin?
Ever wished u actually had real friends?

...

I really dunno wat i'm writin anymore. Really screwed up. There's like 2 person in myself...So screwed up.

feelin lethargic. bye

MidnIght

2004-10-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

its 12.43 midnight now. can't believe time goes so fast....it felt as though is was just yesterday dat my class and i went to desaru early this year...Geez... I'm gonna be sec 3 soon. really don't know whether dats good or bad. Today had a lot of fun especially when tzu long came. Played pool with mandeep and shyen at Kim Seng. tzu long, wilson and stanley joined us shortly after. played a few games with them after dat we went to newton circus with my cousins and relatives. AFter which we went back to valley Park and started to learn how to break dance with tzu long. hehehe. i now know how to a handstand. hehehe. wat ya think of dat? considerin my size...

out of things to say...

missin somthin in life

hahahha

2004-10-07T01:30:00.000-07:00

hahah!!!! Princess??? hahaha. jangan GR deh yah??? loe kira loe siapa? gaya gaya pake lost princess... jijik tau!

Aight...sup ppl? its been a couple of weeks since i last blogged ey? hope ppl actually still check this stupid blog. Anyways, been havin exams now. Still got Life Science and maths 2 tmorrow and on saturday, Physcial Science. Man...so busy but i suppose u can say dat i've been layin back these days. u know how it is...always relax urself during da exams. I think this year's final year's exam's da most messed up for me coz i didn't study at all!!! AT ALL!!!! seriously. i'm not da type dat would say this just to attract attention and to make ppl think dat they ain't gonna be da only ones who's failin. I hardly studied. Luckily for me da papers dats been tested wasn't too hard. Just had malay paper 2 and Maths 1. Been ok i guess considerin da maths paper 1 seems to be easier than the one in mid year.

Fuck Studies...lets talk somthin else...hmmmnnn...really got nothin to say except dat i can see keira knighley starin at me. hahaha. i posted a keira knightley poster on my notice board which is basically dehind da comp. hahaha. She's damn HOT!!! ey???

Listenin to Perfect 10 now...Hmmnn...can't wait when saturday comes and da exams end!!! QUICKLY LEH!!! hahaha. wilson's here. Stupid kid keeps on downloadin porn into his phone. hahaha. but dats normal i suppose since we're guys rite? hahaha.

was readin da papers today. was kinda surprised dat Tiger Woods is actually a follower or bhuddism. pretty cool ey??? Good on ya Tiger! hahaha. From my window, i can see darryl studyin with Tiffany!!! hahaha. u Fag dude!!!

anyways...i think dats all i've got to say for today. need to study for life science and da formula's needed in maths 2. Ciao!!!!

-Peace out!!!

Night

2004-09-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

Sup...

things haven't been goin on well...like always. hahaha. anyways, went to marina square today then to takashimaya to get my book - Grass for His Pillow, da sequel to the Otori series - Across the NightinGale Floor. bought da one with da red cover which is newer. heard dat Across the NightinGale Floor was goin to be made into a movie. Can't wait for it to come out. Scripwriter is goin to be da one who wrote SeaBiscuit.

*****Hmmnn... maybe i'm takin this shit too seriously******. Maybe da best thing to do is just to let go. I really wonder wat its like after death. Will it be better than this world we're livin in? thi fuckin unfair world dat we're livin in. SEriously..i really think dat life after death would be much better than now. I really don't blame those ppl who commits suicide... Sometimes things really go get fucked up so badly u just wanna let go. To be be livin and not enjoyin life itself, wats da difference in death? i mean...think abt it. Even if death means gettin out of this world and forever perish, i believe dat it would still be better than livin in a place whereby it's so fucked up and unfair. If there really is a God, why is it da bad guys always win and those who are kind and followin Your ways are da one who loses??? Its always like dat. No wonder ppl run into all kinds of shit dat makes them bad. Look at em, they enjoy life! RICH! i really don't mind becomin a mighty big drug lord. hehehe. can u imagine urself puffin an expensive cigar and sippin ur latte while your *products* are sold for millions. Geez...

Movin on... I feel dat is breakin up.

its now 11 o'clock. Feelin so alienated from da world. Feel dat i don't belong here. Askin whoever is up there controllin our lives why i am wat i am? ........if u wanna know an honest answer abt urself, one must ask a stranger not his frend as frends will always try to not hurt u therefore not tellin u da real hard truth. Shit...

Its so fuckin cold.

...

2004-09-24T04:35:00.000-07:00

I really got to give it to u*

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Aight...for those out there who reads my blog, i apologize for my sudden change of personality. lets just say someone fucked me up on da wrong day....today really isn't a good day for me. nearly fought in school. you know who u are.

Haven't been bloggin for a couple of days already due to da exams. can't believe da 1stexams actually start on da 4th. i'm fuckin screwed. I better not fail ey? or else good bye to IB! movin on...today was pretty fucked up although it was a friday. Imagine this...your 1st 1 hour and 45th minute in school is spent with a fuyckin gay lord teachin u stuff dat u fuckin don't understand. hardly got anythin into my head today. Johannes somehow pissed me off. Just by lookin at him i get pissed off. Probably due to da callin me BirdBrain or somthin. Wat da fuck? i really didn't get him. it seems to me dat he's attention seekin or somthin. dat fuckin gaylord dissed me off twice today. one for openin da curtain to check out wat a bird was doin and da 2nd for actually checkin out da sky whether it was gonna rain or not. Then Johannes had to call me bird brain for dat. seriously...wat da fuck??? Then Aik wee and myself started tryin to shoot ourselves with paper bullets and this was during veejay's lesson (physical science). here are da ppl dat got involved in da crossfire. hahaha. ---> Maney (2), Hyoong Yoon (1), Chuek Ho (1) .

I must apologize to both Maney and Hyoong Yoon but not to chuek ho. dat guy really needs some fistin or somthin. i guess it was not worth it since da teacher was in da class and my image was already bad enough. Therefore i allowed him to approach me but lets just say it was fortunate for him dat he didn't do shit. or else things would have got pretty messy. For him dat is. Luckily there was Maney to crack me up badly when da fight nearly broke out. He bascially caled my name and lifted his bermudas up to show a part of his leg. and i basically cracked up, Laughin in front of da teacher. but i suppose it was all good. Just all for da sake of entertainment so don't think me and him are gay or somthin aight? coz we really ain't. Aight people? hahaha...

Finsihed readin da book by Lean Hearn - Across the NightinGale Floor

its a very good book. one of da best i've read so far. Due to its powerful words and japanese culture and lets not forget abt da betrayal and love part. dats why i can't wait to get my hands on da sequel to it - Grass for his Pillow

da whole story is set durin da oldern days of Japan whereby Samurai's rule and WarLord's kill for da sake of it. Its pretty simple once u get used to it which u probably will. There's love, passion, betrayal, death, sadness and obviously action. wat more can u ask from a book? ahahaha. anyways...i think dat ought to be it for da diary thing. i wanna express some more stuff to a certain somebody.

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if u think this is the end, then let it be and it will be the end.

2 More Weeks

2004-09-18T22:23:00.000-07:00

Well...it's roughly abt 2 more weeks till da Final Exams start. like some of u might know, my MSN nick says "signs of faliure" therefore i'm guessin u'll know wat i'm talkin abt. Anyways...i think i'm gonna fail but lets just hope for a miracle. Movin on...been abt 3 days since i last blogged rite? or was it more? anyways...been pretty busy nowadays coz of da comin exams. must MUG! it's 10.15 in da mornin now. a Saturday Mornin. At last...a time to sleep more. hahaha. Gonna study again today. got Lawrence for tuition today. Stupid dick! hahaha. he's gonna kill me if he sees this... fucked up Ego Maniac. dats wat i'd call him :P hahaha. jokin dude!!! really dun have any idea wat to write. Hmmnn...thinkin of gettin a new computer. anyone got recommendations? i'm thinkin of makin one. a custom-built PC, if u get wat i mean. Oh yeah...grandparents are here. Today's my grandma's birthday. i think i'll get her somthin for her B'day. is dat sweet or wat? hahaha.

I don't know why but i don't seem to think abt emotion stuff. hehehe. maybe becoz of da exams...this is why i love exam periods. It seems to me dat i'm more serious therefore showin to my parents dat i do study which they oppose of. Keep on sayin dat i dun study. It's just never enough for them. I ge 254, get into ACS I, gettin into IB, but it's just never enough is it? Fuck this.

Wanna get somthin to eat. Stomach's grumblin already. kinda hungry although yesterdat we ate at dat Crab Beehoon place. Sin Huat eatin house or somthin like dat to celebrate my Oma (grandma)'s bitrthday.

Aight...i think dat'll be it for today. Might blog again tonite. we'll see abt it though. still unsure. See how it goes. Peace out !

-fly me to the moon

SCGS Gal

2004-09-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

like wat its said above...this post will have somthin to do with an SCGS gal...but for now...i got to say dat i'm startin to feel da effect of dat fuckin log...

Forgot to write on my last post dat i was hit my a fuckin log durin NPCC sea. is dat fucked up or wat??? da guy just let go off da log and it fell directly on my head..hehehe. but bein da MAN dat i am, i didn't feel anythin. hahaha. just jokin wth u all...i sound EGO rite??? hope u realy know dat i was only jokin there.(u know...to make da blog a bit more interesting rather than just da regular crap)hahaha. Movin on...dat log hit me directly on my head...i knew i shouldn't have gone to da NPCC rafting shit. Bloody Hell!!! i can still feel da pain when i touch da spot where it was hit... but da impact just made me stood there for a while. i could hardly feel anythin. pretty scary...i must admit. i didn;t even know it him me. hope its nothin serious.

Well..movin on...Today was da 1st day of skul after da Holiday. i guess it wasn't dat bad. hahaha. Spent abt and hour and a half studyin today. how good is dat??? hahaha. Spent it downstairs next to da pool. Very windy therefore enabling me to concentrate more. Anyways...Darryl joined me a few minutes later coz he saw me. AFter dat all kinds of strange coincedence happen. damn funny. but i'm afraid i can't say anythin. hahaha. it's only between me and darryl. Movin on...dat fuckin retard (darryl) saw da SCGS gal and u wouldn;'t imagine wat he actually did. dat FUCKTARD!!! he actually told some kids(maybe around primary 4-5) to actually go up to her and tell her dat i like her which is BULLSHIT!!! i mean like...wat da fuck? wel...i guess her reply wasn't dat bad. hahaha. after tellin her dat, she smiled then laughed a bit...(i have no idea wat dat reply means). Anyways, da kids started to be somekind of messengers. pretty fucked up kids. hahaha. in the end i had to go up to her and apologised for da inconvenience caused and dat it was all a big joke daryl made. Stupid retard (Daryl). By then, he was already at home. Then she gave them a note which was meant for me sayin dat i shouldn;t exploit kids... Wat da fuck??? hahaha.

okay...i guess we were just meant to have a bad image for one another...a very strange 1st encounter with da SCGS gal... haaha. i don't even know her name. if i wasn't wrong it was Tiffany of somthin. hahaha. pretty Nice name don';t u think? i don;t have or don't know anyone by da name of Tiffany except for her. ain't dat cool??? hahaha

ok...i think dat'll be it for da day. Peace out people coz its now time to MUG LIKE HELL!!!

haahhaha.

Back in Business

2004-09-12T19:45:00.000-07:00

Like wat da title says, i'm back in business. hahaha. Anyways...been quite a while since i posted in again.

(I"M SORRY TO THOSE WHO DIDN'T READ THIS ARTICLE FASTER AS I HAVE ALREADY DELETED THIS SECTION WHICH IS ABT MY TRIP TO PADANG WITH *SOMEONE* WHO DOES NOT WISH TO BE IN MY BLOG. HAHAHA. SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE)

I wonder if i'd see her again if i were to go back to Padang. i don't think we'd (da girl and myself) would remember each other.

Fuck...Mom's currently naggin at me. fuckin sick of it...Geez...
Complainin bout my studies, complainin bout my look...complanin dat i didn't take a shower...naggin at me to take a shower...FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! don't u get it...it's rpetty fucked up at my place here. My brothers are fucked up as well...i think i'll give em a real bashing one of these days. I really would like to feel wat its like to use my fist against them. it's been a while since i've used these fists. my screwed up fists. da bones just above my fingers are screwed up. some are bigger than others...probably becoz of da punchin of walls when i was younger. It's to loosen up my anger...hahaha...pretty fucked up ey???but i guess now i've grown a little. but i guess some of u might oppose to dat.

movin on...went to da lounge today and went for da IB briefin yesterday at skul. Hmmnn...think i'll be takin 2 science, bio & chem, Geography and last but not least ART!!!! oh yeah!!! ART's my life yall! i think i got int IB partly becoz of my art. lets just hope so anyways. hahaha.

Now...back to skul life. Tomorrow's monday already and we all can say goodbye to da holidays already. coz we've only got 4.30 hours to go till da holidays end. so sad ey???but too bad...dats life. yeh...

i think i got to take a shower 1st...i hate takin shower. i really hate it. just when u feel like sleepin and feelin drowsy, u get drenched with cold water.!!!! i hate dat feelin. then it makes u all fresh and shit.

By the way, Sonia, how come u think i've changed??? i really don't feel dat i have changed, its just dat nowadays i tend to observe reality more and dat i feel u've got to somehow be bad...well...not bad...just a bit to da rebeliious side, or u're gonna get bullied. dats how i feel anyways. Never let anyone think dat they're more superior than u...Unless they really are lah...then u better back off. hahaha. in Addition, i feel dat i'm under stress nowadays. maybe becoz dat i'm havin BIG problems wth my studies nowadays. especially maths!!! anyone care to help me??? ANYONE???? hahaha

but honestly, i really do have problems with maths. BIG PROBLEMS!!! and its only 2 more weeks till final exams gonna start. I AM SCREWED!!!!

Well...at least i'm still in IB ey??? hgahaha. aight...i think dat'll be it for da day. Peace Out ppl

I ISS OU

Last Day of School

2004-09-03T06:56:00.000-07:00

...got nothin much to say...
to think dat we'd be celebratin the shit out of ourselves...geez...boy was i wrong. Turned out to be pretty crappy. But i did catch a movie with some of da ACS guys...Jimmy, Clifton (Clits) and Benedict (Bend-a-dick) hahaha. get it??? not funny??? well u can suck on this (pointin da middle finger)!!! Movin on...we watched Anacondas :the hunt for da blood orchid. well...i got to admit dat it kinda sucked. was hopin for more but i guess i must say dat i'm dissapointed but still...it's still okay lah. but don't expect anythin new. hate da endin though. always a happy ending. Who would have thought dat i'd meet Albert and Findy when i came out to chuck a piss. hahaha. i tink they watched Hillary Duff's cinderella story. No wonder he was sayin dat she turned hot all of a sudden. hahaha. anyways...we played CS after dat. damn fun. prety screwed up. Kept on killin each other. even team mates. hahaha. after CS, we went to Time Zone...played a bit of basketball and King of Fighter. Now...after playin this game, somthin went to my mind...why is it not Queen of Fighter? I mean...face it...there's also girl characters in da game and i've got to admit that some of em...well...most of em anyways are damn strong characters to use.

Met ALbert and Stef after da time zone thing. ate at da teppanyaki place in GW. man...my blog's startin to sound like a diary...somthin dat i didn't intend to do.

well...i am realy not in da mood to talk anythin abt emotions now...really don't have any.

Now i'm just hinkin whether or not to go to Padang with albert tomorrow. anyone got ideas??? i feel like skippin da perefects thing but i think betty khng would be pretty pised off at me. and therefore makin me out of her good books. hahaha. Movin on...now...lets see...wat is wrong with this Justine ah???? haaha... keep on floodin ppl's blog. like got nothin better to do like dat. hahaha.

Hmmnn...listenin to perfect 10 now... jamie yeo on da line advertisin da cyber games thing.

Song of da Moment : Tata Young - Sexy , Naughty, Bitchy

dat gal is pretty hot ey??? dun u think so??? hehee
dats abt it for today...gettin late already. it's now 10.22 pm already. hahaha

ok...Nitez PPL

-Peace Out

Tin

2004-09-02T20:01:00.000-07:00

Wazzup ppl... it's exactly 8 o'clock in da evenin now. just want to post the lyrics to da song playin on my blog ---> Usher's Confessions Part 2

Watch this...
[Chorus]
These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I can say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm throwed and I dont know what to do
I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions
[Verse 1]
Now this gon' be the hardest thing I think I ever had to do
Got me talkin' to myself askin' how I'm gon' tell you
'bout that chick on part 1 I told ya'll I was creepin' with,
creepin' with
Said she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it
The first thing that came to mind was you
Second thing was how do I know if it's mine and is it true
Third thing was me wishin' that I never did what I did
How I ain't ready for no kid and bye bye to our relationship
[Chorus]
These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I can say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm throwed and I don't know what to do
I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions
[Verse 2]
See when this stuff goes through be tryna figure out
When, what, and how I'mma let this come out of my mouth
Said it ain't gon' be easy
But I need to stop thinkin', contemplatin'
Be a man and get it over with (over with)
I'm ridin' in my whip
Racin' to her place
Talkin' to myself
Preparin' to tell her to her face
She open up the door and didn't want to come near me
I said why ? baby?
Please hear me
[Chorus]
These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I can say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm throwed and I don't know what to do
I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions
[Breakdown]
This by far is the hardest thing I think I've ever had to do
To tell you, the woman I love
That I'm having a baby by a woman that I barely even know
I hope you can accept the fact that I'm man enough to tell you
this
And hopefully you'll give me another chance
This ain't about my career
This ain't about my life
It's about us
Please
[Chorus]
These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I can say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm throwed and I don't know what to do
I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions

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Screwed Up PE

2004-09-02T18:07:00.000-07:00

ever had those days whereby u just want to kill a teacher? well...we have it everyday. but today, i must admit is one of those whereby u really get pissed off. well...we were supposed to swim today for PE but bloody Azman never even tell us. Some more he still can say dat it was our fault dat we forgot when none of us in da class knew. Can u believe dat guy? GeeZ.... while those with trunks swim, those with tank tops had to assemble at da track. 1st was da jumpin jacks. bloody timothy chee go and punish da shit out of us for somthin dat wasn't our fault. we did at least a hundred i think. the timothy chee kept on forcin us to start from 0 again. fuckin bastard. but luckily for me...i had dat bloody ingrown toe nail so i can't jump so da bloody chan chee wei told me to do da hand movements instead and IN FRONT OF DA WHOLE 4 or 5 classes doin jumpin jacks. so i wouldn't exactly call it lucky but rather embarassaing. after da jumpin jacks were push ups. now it was Azman's turn to Diss us! made us to abt 40 or 50 push ups i think. some more my arms were achin dat time due to yesterday's push up's. (i just start doin my push up's again. biceps and triceps gettin smaller and softer). did abt 70 da day b4. after push up's, da fuckin PE teachers seperated us by the colour of our tank tops. da yellow ones were to run 400 m under 1min 50 sec. which is not so hard. while the ones with other coloured tank tops, includin me had to do push ups. and there was also less ppl wearin da coloured tank tops. worse still, Emil and this other guy who looks like some faggot from WWE or somthin like dat was wearin yellow. therefore, we had to do another 30 push ups. and this is just da beginning. after da 1st round, we (those with cloured tank tops) were told to hold it there in push up positions while waitin for da yellow's to finish off their 2nd round in 1 min 40 sec which they obviously failed due to some individuals. i think my grandma can also run faster than them...geez...Luckily for me, i didn't have to run when da coloured tank toppers had to run 1 round due to my in grown nail. well...dats da whole story of today's fucked up PE.

wasn't feelin very well after PE so i went home. hehehe. went home at abt 9.45 so good. so i missed da life science test and malay. but da bad thing is, i must stay back tomorrow :( well...mom's back from Tibet and boy did she bring back a lot of stuff. some pretty cool stuff too. you know how i am with Tibetan stuff rite??? hehehe. just can't get enough of em.

time's 6.05 pm. and still tickin. time's goin to fast nowadays. well...dat's why i got to leave da computer now to study for my life science which i haven't even touched. but it should be pretty easy since da topic tested is those topics dat most guys know da most abt. HAHAH!!!Peace Out guys!!!! Tin.

Brand New Blog

2004-08-31T21:30:00.000-07:00

...Hellooo people...sorry for da inconvenience caused due to the changin of my blog. by the way, please change your link to mine to this new website. but then again..wat am i sayin...nobody sees my blog anyway. hahaha. Anyways, movin on, i really don't know why i chose Velvet Window...it sounds cool anyways. reminds us of da velvet revolver aye? hahaha.

Movin on...lets see wat has happened...ermm...oh yeah...I GOT INTO IB!!!! hahaha.
but i'm afraid da fact dat i got into IB will be tarnish my image. Fuckin School....Still must call me up for donatin da most. i mean to think dat $2000 will be the highest??? u've got to be jokin right? i mean how many spoilt rich asses are there in ACS I??? C'mon...now ppl will think i got into IB becoz of da donation thing....now wat am i supposed to do with da bike dat i got for donatin da most? i might regret this but I"M GONNA DONATE IT TO SOME CHARITY THING...anyone got ideas who to give it to? or which special school i should give it to? frends told me to give it to da salvation army, but i'd prefer to make sure dat da bike actually goes to da kids, therefore i'll personally give it to them. Hope they accept it anyways.

Movin on...it's 9.21 am now. listenin to perfect 10. no song of da moment currently but they were just advertisin "Man On Fire'' acted by Denzel Washington. a very good movie indeed. Watched it already. hehehe. All thanks to da piracy companies in INDONESIA! LONG LIVE PIRACY AND INDONESIA...hahahaha.

Let's see....ermm..went back to radin mas yesterday. i got to admit dat da school is improvin. man...i wonder who dat CHIJ chick was...Tzu Long said dat she was in my batch..but i didn't seem to remember her. she must have some plastic surgery or somthin. hahaha. other than her, there was this other girl that i remember. hehehe. wat am i sayin...its not like i'll have a chance. see people...this is the result of schoolin in Boy's School! becomin desperate....hahahha. just playin with u all...i'm not dat despo...rite???

Song of da Moment : I Like da Way you Move by OutKast

hehehe. those 2 dudes are pretty whacked. whacked in a good way. hahaha. Hmmnn...HAPPY TEACHERS DAY FOR ALL DA TEACHERS OUT THERE. sorry if its late. hahaha. now that reminds me that i got to go to great world to buy somthin for da teachers. you know how it is. got to boot lick em. hahaha. then u'll go to their good books.

well...i think dats all i can remember for now.

Ps. parents are out of town. both in Tibet but mom's comin back today. can't wait for their surprised faces after hearin dat i got into IB. hehehe